Anal Training and more....

Sir and I had a chat last night and the result is I am going to start my anal training properly once the butt plugs arrive :D
There will also be more breath play..I so love it when Sir controls when and how I breathe!

Also want to have him fill me more...fitting in more fingers!

Whilst I love that I can take what he dishes out without restraints being used I have also asked to be bound more often as I actually like the feeling of being strapped down..there is a different kind of release in it that I crave.

There has also been the decision made that now I can play with another woman..whether as part of us..I would love for that..to have a third join us and please Sir in yet more ways..Or just to play individually :)

So as always learning and journeying together whilst talking and having tons of fun :D

Lucky little thing...

I am such a lucky little sub....

My back and ass are glowing, hot and stingy..I was flogged and spanked and scratched for what felt like hours...

My greedy pussy has been spanked with a flogger then hand whilst Sirs' other hand firmly pinned my begging clit in place....

Then just as I am abouts to beg to be filled I am fucked till I am gasping...

Now in our afterglow I shall sleep and dream of what will happen next time....

A dream but one I would love to happen....

We are walking through a house and you lead me to a large low seated chair which apart from a table of your favorite toys is the only thing in the room, you sit me down and slowly chain my arms to the armrests, my legs are fastened to the front legs so I am spread.


You start by stroking me like a pet, explaining to me what each toy in your collection will do to me in your hands. Making me shiver with anticipation, becoming moist at the thought of you controlling my every orgasm and every sound.
Slowly you rip off the flimsy summer clothes i am wearing till i am exposed completely...then you play with whatever parts of me catch your fancy. Your small latex flogger and a crop making a range of lines and marks on my smooth white skin, from my shoulders, to my thighs you give me those kisses of fire and pain.

My clit is tweaked with one hand, sometimes almost painfully clamped whilst you finger fuck me, adding finger after finger until I feel i will split and you bring me to orgasm over and over despite my trying to convince you another one is not going to happen. Then you reach for the toys and pulling my hips forward you insert slowly a lubed up butt plug making me gasp, then you fill my sopping pussy with the largest vibrator on the table making me almost scream and it is pushed in, then you turn it on and press a wand to my clit..now I do scream as I orgasm over and over I beg for you to stop but you just grin and force yet more from me I am a sweating wet mass of sensation and emotion fully controlled by you.


Then leaving vibrator and plug in you order me not to move....
My breasts are oiled and grabbed and held tightly..I know there will be bruises from fingers and teeth and i smile into my moans knowing i am so marked by you.

My pussy is spanked and flogged slowly bringing me to the edge of another orgasm I would never have thought possible, with your telling me how bad I am, and promises of furthur treatment once I am allowed out of the chair a cane is held and stroked over my skin..you tell me how you will use it on my ass and thighs when you have me over your knee later making my eyes widen and my breath come forth in ragged gasps at the thoughts of such treatment


You then bring your large cock to my face and gripping my hair you thrust it into my mouth and slowly down my throat, and steadily fuck me raw..allowing me to breath occasionally but not allowing me much time to swallow so my mouth remains wet..you push past every gag reflex, going deeper than ever before you come deep down my throat..so far that I cannot taste you until you withdraw.

Then with one last stroke of my sopping pussy and leaving the toys vibrating you walk away saying you will return later to use me again....

waiting for Sir to come visit me before he moved in

my throat is his...

Over the months Sir and I have been setting about my deep throat training with much enthusiasm whilst taking it as slow and steady as we can.

We have had sessions where he just lays back and allows me to do all the work so he can help judge and learn where my gag points are, other times he has had his hands in my hair at the back of my head fucking my throat raw to come at the edge of being properly deep.

So to the other night with him..we started off with him waking me from a snooze with him hard and ready for me and greedy little me was quite happy to have my mouth filled with him knelt above me..with each thrust him going deeper and deeper with occasional withdraws to allow me to catch my breath.
With me getting hornier with each thrust..I could feel my clit begging and deep within I was getting wetter and wetter at this treatment and as he filled my throat and worked past each old gag point I was close to orgasm.
With no tongue bar in he had an easy time sliding down my throat and finally he was able to come deep inside..which admittedly felt strange and great at the same time and caused me to move but did mean by time I had him in my mouth he had mainly shot the lot down my throat and I got to suck and lick him clean.

This I am very happy about and will be repeated..hopefully tonight :D

Contentment

Friday night I got to sleep in my collar, Sir put it on and did not take it off until I had to go grab a shower before going out..I slept wonderfully and peacefully..actually the best nights’ sleep I have had in a while.

Last night after a very very busy day by time he returned home he was so tired all he had the energy for was to fall into bed and fall asleep at my side…I love watching him sleep, hearing him breathe…content that he is with me, that he has chosen this life with me we share so much.

I am honoured and still in wonder that he wants me that he allows me to serve him, to love him, to take care of him and his needs and wants..even without the amazing lovemaking the everyday stuff works so well between us, a stroke on my cheek, a grin, a few words that no matter how hard my work becomes he makes everything easier by just being with me, by my knowing that in his arms I find love and contentment.

spanked long and hard....:D

The other night whilst relaxing in the bedroom I was laid naked across the bed head resting on my hands watching Sir working on his computer whilst we talked about the holiday we had just had together.  Eventually he came and sat next to me and stroked me from neck to the back of my thighs and I laid there enjoying the sensation of his hands on my soft skin.

When he was happy with how relaxed and calm he had me he started to gently spank my ass at first taking what felt an age to warm me up..it was amazing I felt myself drifting into myself, into just the one place where that contact was.  Steadily he started to build up the level of pain delivered and with skimming type slaps soon had me on that tide of pain and pleasure and held me there sometimes exacting a moan, sometimes a sob..I lost all time sense..there was just Sir, his hands and my bottom receiving such fine attention.

Eventually he brought out the paddle and with many stinging painful slaps I was take even deeper into that place some call subspace to me it is the place only Sir has ever put me and when he was finished turning my tushie cherry red and oh so sensitive he pulled the furry throw over me and I was soothed and stroked until I came back which took what felt ages..I then shnuggled and thanked him profusely before I turned my attentions on him and pleasured him in the ways he loves best :D

When we checked the time hours had passed unnoticed :D

I found it fun to sit the next day..I love those little reminders :D

I am sorry Sir...

Well this morning I thought it would be a great idea to spice up my day and all the chores I had to do by having my vibrating balls in and playing with the settings as I went along :D

SO I grabbed them when I went to wake my lovely K up and popped them in in the bathroom and went about doing stuffs, making brews etc...Sir eventually asked me when I put them in and then pointed out I should have asked for permission and asked him to put them in...OOOPS!!

Boy did I get it...first punishment saw me on my knees throat full of his cock with him fully in control, I was only allowed to breath when he decided..eventually he came and then he told me more was to come later and to go about my chores...with the balls in.

So I was to do this and see how long I could go before I asked for an orgasm..when I finally did I was told I had to do exercise first!!  Firstly there was 10 mins on the Wii stepping then I had to sit and do the meditation one without moving!!!

Finally I was taken upstairs and told to strip and get on all fours where an anal vibe was inserted and I was quickly warmed up with a suede flogger..this was then switched for his leather strap..this really hurts... and I was spanked till almost sobbing I managed to apologise enough for him to stop!!

Then I was kept on edge for even longer him playing with vibe, balls and my begging greedy clit...when i was finally allowed release I came big time..I was then ordered to clean up as he went off to do other stuff..a definate short sharp punishment..his tone of voice said it all!

I wish to serve...

Later on tonight I will strip down to the underwear I have been wearing all day to entice you, the black lace bra, the crotchless black lace pants and overknee socks.  Then I will fasten on my collar and leash and kneel by you as you work at your desk and wait for your attention to fall upon me.

I hope you will take the offered leash and pull me over so I can then pleasure your cock, slowly licking and sucking the shaft until you are hard then take you deep in my throat cutting off my breath.  I hope you will then grip my hair and head and control the thrusts and my breathing at the same time until my throat is raw if that is what you wish.

I want you to choose the ways I can please you tonight, maybe you want to bend me over your knee as you spank me with your leather gloved hand...then hold me in place as you insert a butt plug that I have to keep in place as you flog me...telling me what is promised later if I am a good girl...pulling on my leash, my hair as you do.

Maybe you will hold me on your lap as with plug in place you hold a bullet on my clit and place finger after finger deep inside me and bring me close to orgasm over and over until I am begging for release, begging for your cock!

Maybe you will have thought up something I have not and surprise me with your inventiveness yet again :D

A realisation....

Ok this was probably apparent to all but only just really hit me today whilst my brain was rambling...

I am so comfortable being sub to K and to challenge my limits and to lose control because he is strong enough to deal with it, because with him I have found someone I can trust to let it all go in front of and know he will be there on the other side!

To know that when we come down from that place that is so full of something so special so full of everything, that place where I can float and take and serve that we can nestle in each others arms and soothe and stroke each other and know we have been there together and will be together for long after.

More is sleeting through my brain and as I try to grasp the thoughts they slip away faster than blinking!

Wants....

..to be held tight, kissed hard and long....

..to be slowly warmed with latex flogger then beaten with the red and black suede stinging flogger till I cannot   breathe without sobbing...

...to have his hand on my throat, on my face knowing he is my breath....

...his nails sending those scratches singing along my skin....

...to be humiliated...on my knees waiting for his attention...

...his cock again deep in my throat, in my hungry pussy, in my wanton ass..he owns all of me, uses all of me...

...him holding me down as he takes me as he pleases...

...to wrap around him and in his arms breathing calming..soothing each other..strokes and caresses and tender kisses..

...him to always want me, to always love me as he does now and enjoy our journey together xxx

Balls testing :D

Last night I was given a lovely gift of these http://www.eroticapleasures.co.uk/product_info.php?products_id=4046 amazing, astounding, surprising and so much more....and so on with the full review :D

So with peace and quiet and NFD and then NIN set on the music player we grabbed a hot and steamy shower making sure EVERYWHERE was clean and scrubbed :D

Whilst K was downstairs sorting some last minute things out I swiftly got changed into my naughty nurse outfit..he has been a bit poorly..black lace bra, frilled lace knickers, hold up stockings, nurse dress and hat and when he returned I got to work making him feel better :D

Soon as I was relaxed enough he slowly slid the balls in and turned them on, the balls are bigger than I am used to and three instead of two so I was very filled!..With his finger playing with my clit too I orgasmed in under 30 secs..these things are powerful.

To show my gratitude and to continue him feeling better and since he had taken his ring out of his penis piercing I took him as far as I could down my throat and then he held my head as he fucked my throat whilst turning up the balls and playing through the settings..the orgasms were very intense! I was also kissed, bitten and scratched and had many of my senses played with..one moment his hand on my throat controlling my breath, then to have his nails send singing scratches down my soft white skin, to roughly grabbing a breast to playing my clit so hard and fast :D

After what seemed an age and whilst he had me floating on orgasmic bliss an anal vibe was then inserted to ensure my tight ass was well and truly lubricated then with him half sat half laid I was asked to get on my knees over him and with my back to him and lower myself slowly onto his large ready cock.

Had I mentioned how full these balls filled me? I really did not think I would be able to stretch enough to fit him in my ass but with him talking me through relaxing and breathing and lots of lube we got through the tight stage and with both my holes so very very full my orgasms were so fantastic..we also found that the bottom ball vibrated well against his balls sending that sensation to my clit also :D So after he had brought me a few more times he finally held my hips tightly and fucked my tight ass till he was rewarded with release, then before he softened I was brought again to orgasm..all the while the balls buzzed happily away I mean I almost orgasmed taking them out!

And so those balls are now cleaned and sat in my bedside drawer for another use..they will be a popular toy I am sure as I love them already :D

sobs and smiles :D

For the first time I was spanked and flogged so hard and long that my moans and yelps turned to sobs :D

The other night he told me to lay face down then slowly started to warm my ass up with a spanking, then he reached and brought out the leather belt type flogger and at first gently slapped with it.  Then building up the tempo and the strength of his work I was lashed with it..a few times I got close to using the safeword but he seemed to read this yet again and would stop or slow down and stroke his work, check I was ok and hand me a drink before carrying on.

Once he was content with the lashing my ass had had it was definately red and hot enough he reached for the suede flogger and went to work on my upper back and shoulders and again start slowly and teasingly he brought my back to the same state yet again bringing forth sobs and whimpers from me! He did say he missed not having a feather to finish off with as by this time even the lightest touch provoked an intense reaction.

I was then told to move slightly and go on my knees with head down and legs quite spread and like that he teased my vunerable ass and pussy with another suede flogger, stroking gently..then without warning the gentle spanking reward began and it was not long till he brought me to orgasm with it..panting and trying not to move.

Through all this the only thing that kept me restrained and in place was my willpower, my not wanting to disappoint and he certainly rewarded me well and truly and the fucking I was given was very very thorough :D

Then we curled up and stroked and shnuggled and came down together from that heady space we were in together, the next day I was tender..I could sit down but only very carefully and grinned everytime the fabric of my clothes pulled across my oh so sensitive skin.  My aching greedy self wanted more though and I got more later that day :D

Again a happy Donnamaria with lots to smile about :D

Collared....:D

Valentines yesterday and we had decided due to our holiday at the end of March we would not do much, shnuggles, movies and bedroom bliss..we did it very huge last year for our first one anyways :D

K had already told me he had bought me a collar and was waiting for it to be delivered as he had decided that I would look good in a posture collar :D

So last night with the surprises in bed he wrought on me again..(I still ache this afternoon) I thought we well and truly celebrated the day :D

This morning parcels arrived and in one was the collar..a lovely black leather posture collar...it is the first collar he has chosen and bought me himself...(the other two i already have are ones I got free to test from a toy company).

He told me to sit with my back to him and fastened it around my neck then told me only he would take it off and put it on and even when it not around my neck I am still his. and yes I am now collared.

So I am all his in all ways and loved and loving him..not sure what to do to celebrate I am just a bubbly puddle of happiness at the mo :D

PS: for those unsure of what collaring can mean here ya go http://www.soulshaven.f2s.com/sub_collars.php3

The little things...

I try to remember to do the little things as often as possible to let him  know I am here whenever he wants even when I have vanished to another part of the house to sort the chores I have to do everyday.

Last night for example after relaxing after a hard day I then went and had a good wash and primp, made myself smell nice and when i returned to the bedroom he was sat chilling on the Xbox whilst sat on the bed..I simply stripped out of my pjs and knelt on my elbows and knees to watch what he was doing whilst positioning myself within reach.  I was rewarded with his attention in the form of some slaps across the tush and lots of stroking..was more than enough for me :D

Whilst he was upstairs working today I brought him cups of tea and hugs, made his meals and which I served downstairs so he took a needed break away from the screen.

Other instances have been me just simply stroking him reassuring him I am there for whatever use he desires whenever he wants, showing him I do love him in many different ways even though I know I don't say it often enough...I be a bit rubbish with the verbal side of things.

Another thing I do is check his favourite toys and restraints are where he likes them to be after I have tidied :D

He will also let me know of other things I can do which helps....:D

Fellatio

It seems I am one of the rare women that loves performing fellatio!

From first flicking my tongue across the tip of his cock to the taste of him being thoroughly pleasured I enjoy every second. I cannot understand why anyone would not enjoy such an act as there are so many different ways to play and have fun as well as give such pleasures.
I have no set technique, most of the time it depends on mood, how we are feeling and how stimulated I want him and whether it is foreplay or a full on blow job.

I also find I love deep throating, seeing how much more I can take down my throat is a pleasurable experience for both of us and I do so enjoy it when he takes over with the pace and depth and controls it all and I am just a mouth to be used as well as when he lays back and enjoys whatever I dish out.

dreamings....

the other morning I woke from a dream that left me feeling very horny, infact I was hot and damp and K was quickly invited to help relieve the ache..still not told him what the dream was about but he did appreciate the result..so whilst I can still remember most of it I will write it down and share....

Setting..we are in a fetish club already going well, plenty of people everyone in a fine mood my master in a very fine mood and looking very dapper as is his style when we are out...I am dressed in corset, short bustle skirt, heels finished off with me on a leash!

We eventually make our way to the dungeon and a bench is free..I am in a silly mood, being bratty and full of giggles so I am taken over by K and put over it, skirt raised and he proceeds to spank my ass, only response he gets are more giggles and downright brattishness..he spanks harder to no avail and tells me one more giggle and he gets in help..I giggle..so he orders me not to move a muscle and walks off...and comes back with a house master obviously explaining the situation..whereupon as K looks on I get spanked by someone I cannot even try to wheedle around..yet still I giggle!

They meet at my ass and discuss my naughtiness and decide more intense actions are needed so pulled up by K by my hair I am led to a St Andrews cross and have my wrists manacled above my head and my ankles are spread and shackled! My skirt is removed and I have my ass flogged by both of them taking turns..yet still I can raise a giggle..so K removes my corset freeing my breasts for all to see and I cannot wrap my arms around them..he then pinches my nipples hard as I feel the fire of a whip across my shoulders then it is worked down to the back of my thighs and back up again.

Yet still through the yelps and moans I can giggle so K reaches for a cane and stripes me thoroughly for all to see I am a mix of sobs and moans, loving every moment but so very humiliated/embarrassed that so many see me breaking..I hold up my chin and manage another giggle for him....

my leash is grabbed by him and wrapped around his hand..the house master then hands him a very stiff leather paddle and puts clamps on my nipples which are tightened harshly and K spanks me HARD until I can no longer breath straight, my breaths are just ragged sobs and can't even smile nevermind giggle..all I want to do is curl up and beg forgiveness. So broken.

He sees this and lets me down and takes me to the quiet area to gather myself and have a drink and he strokes me and tells me how now I am very good girl, how wonderful I was up there........


I am not sure where this dream came from, I have never dreamt of myself in this type of scenario before..though the more I think of it I do not think it out of the realms of future possibilities...

humiliation......

Oh how he reminded me how he owns me utterly..and so the tale that goes with the new piccy :D

With all the confusion with back forth to each other places and his move in my neck to wrist restraint had gone missing but was found again and so with it back in the toybox I showered, lit candles, made sure his favourite toys, floggers etc were on hand and waited for him to join me in the bedroom, which he did with that grin that promises me such wicked things.

First things first I got to do was tweak and play and arouse his interest as I crawled up the bed and over him to then have my mouth and throat fucked hard and deep till I was almost to raw to speak. Then I was told to sit up whereupon he fastened me tightly into my restraint with my arms cinched higher than before.  I was then laid facedown across the bed so my face was off the edge and then my punishments for being a brat commenced.  The new suede flogger I bought him for our anniversary has sealed ends that sting like knots but don't bruise and with enough force I found out this night felt like they cut the skin and raise some fine but deep welts which I still felt the next day.
Alternating between the flogger, the long leather tongue type thing, his hand and nails he brought forth a melody of whimpers, yelps, moans, sobs and pleas from my lips and once he had turned my porclain white skin bright cherry red from shoulder to thighs he flipped me over and turned me lengthways on the bed eliciting more moans as my welts were very very tender :D

He then blindfolded me, put bamboo thai nipple clamps on my very erect nipples and the went to work on them, flicking one, biting the other, sometimes twisting the clamps, sometimes pulling..playing those engorged nubs until I felt I could take no more then he played some more....and more.

Then he decided it was time for the hot wax something new for me..and so the soy candle was held above my quivering skin, the smell of it exciting and scaring me at the same time...each droplet was an explosion of pleasure and pain and whilst flinching from the shock my body craved more and he gave more and more, whilst still reaching for a clamp to remind my nipples that they were his toys.

He then decided I would make an excellent candle holder and so he placed the candle on my pelvic area, right on my freshly shaved flesh, and with my legs still bent up he ordered me not to move as he walked round the bed admiring his handiwork and took a couple of pictures!

This was me feeling totally humiliated and realising I loved it, it was where I wanted to be, all I wanted and all I do want is to please him however he wishes, to lay there and know I am utterly owned..to know that my punisments are deserved, to feel the glow when I hear "good girl" :D